Sorry to be blunt but you will die. We all do. No one knows when or how, but it is inevitable. My father died last night. He has been fighting pancreatic cancer for three years now and ten days ago he gave up the fight. I never really had a relationship with my father. He left when my parents divorced when I was seven. My childhood years involved sporadic visits. Not enough time together to develop any sort of relationship. Then when he learned of my pregnancy he tried to reconnect, only I wouldn't allow it. I let old emotions rule my decision. "You didn't want to be part of my life so why will I allow you to be part of my children's lives?" Lots of time past, then I learned of his illness. Wanting to deal with emotions I had been holding on to a very long time I decided to let go and visit him. It turns out that my father is a lot like me. Always had a smile on his face. Liked to have fun, he was fun. I probably would have really liked the man given a chance. What I learned is that life is full of choices and that decisions you make don't always just affect you. Actually they never just affect you. You never know when this crazy ride is going to end. Get out there and make a concious effort to enjoy life. Forgive those that make bad decisions, learn to be healthy, teach your children to be healthy, smile, have fun, don't sweat the small stuff, enjoy the simple pleasures. I could go on and on. Make your life what you want it to be, it is your choice. Rest in peace Melvin Mark Cook.

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